So.Imgaine this. 
you woke up early, went to school set thru hours of lessons, 
forced yourself to read your notes/readings,
went to fulfill some cip hours,
reach home late dreading waking up early the nxt day,
and the uncompleted tutorials due tmr,
you're so tired. can barely keep your eyes open,
only ONE thing can make your day.

<( PURE JOY )

the HOLIDAY has been awesome so far. HAHA.
late night supper and stoning sessions with sparkling gold friend.
hanging with what what friend and being enthu about biz comm. (HAHA)
Sunday outings and crazy car rides and aimless walking around
aston's with the jc friends, staying over at cara's watching you tube's finest
tailor made pants and shopping for cheap stuff below 20
lau pok gpa not worth mentioning and i dont care cos i gg to get 4.0 nxt sem (HAHA)
attempted christmas shopping which only resulted in swear words at the tip of my tongue
bribing a 6 year old kid with pushpops and stickers to do her countless no. of kumon worksheets
christmas celebrations candy canes and lots of chocolates
dempsey with my all in one which ended unexpectedly in a crazy night with 2 other insanee ppl
saying merry christmas and smiling sheepishly while accepting presents w/o giving any

( hols so far )

 ALL ALONG I THOUGHT THIS WEEK WAS WEEK 10 AND THEN I WAS ENLIGHTENED BY FELLOW AS MATES THAT ITS WEEK 11.
OH MY SHIT! I AM IN PREETTY DEEP SHIT. HOW NOW COW BROWN NOW HOW ???!!!!
AS presentation just now was pretty screwed but i'm glad its over.

School has been cruel and a bitch. even the escalators in school are being bitchy by refusing to budge and remaining in the 'save energy' mode. anws, my lau pok what what friend influenced me not to to the development essay so i still have another pol sc essay to complete. haha. and my current AS group is so not working out. i just hope the presentation works out. and BGS group mates are great. our overnight project meeting went preety great peppered with moments of insanity and incoherent sentances. multiple cups of coffee, rojak, gummy bears, chees cake, strawberries and cereal. lionel's non mainstream house and orange lights. my bgs groupmates are the best i've had so far. haha. we should get A plus plus plus lah. HAHA.
and i miss goldie annd pootz. buffet, partyworld and anything anywhere soon! 
okay back to the stack of globalisation readings. i need to stop procrastinating and getting distracted or i'll never get anything done.

i just spent the past 10seconds or so attempting to rub the 'dirt' off my computer screen only to realise it was actually an 
open inverted comma that i had accidentally typed in unknowingly.
in case you didnt know. an open inverted comma can really look like dirt.

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go ahead laugh. i laughed at myself too. HAHAHA.

This is long overdue. but for some weird obscure reason, my chio sis insists i do this. so HAPPY BIRTHDAY SISSY. she turned 21 on 19 sep. and that set me back 150bucks  because for some wierd reason i bought her the longchamp bag she wanted. that is very not me. i am a frugal miser. and i'm broke now. i am suffering the after effects of that splurge. may not seem like a big sum but i'm only a student yo! but its okay. she bought me a lot of clothes and a vintage bag from thailand. HAHA. and she bought for herself 10 pairs of shorts, 5 pairs of slippers many dresses and tops and i dont know what else bcos everything was too cheap. sne bought my mom 3 bags. very cheap indeed.

I AM RATHER HAPPY ITS MID TERM BREAK.
(THO THR'S WORK TO DO AT LEAST THR'S NO LESSONS! YAY!)
i need a break from all the chiongsters and muggers. and have an ultimate chill and relax week.
i'm still struggling to make sense of it all. oh well.
and I NEED A HOLIDAY. HOLIDAY HOLIDAY HOLIDAY! HAHA.

(this is still my favourite)

today i had some time to kill before going to teach tuition.
i went to the library in an attempt to read my political sci readings, i found a great place to sit.
i absolutely love sitting on the couches. especially the ones near the windows facing the accountacncy block/museum.
i'm too broke to develop my flim. i have 3 rolls of undeveloped flim. they are growing mouldy on my desk.

i need to to feel that sense of achievement and self staisfaction.

and after 9 months of no brain activity, i got a C ,for cannot make it, for my first essay.
it was a little discouraging. i hope it gets better.
more waffles and bubble tea please.

After 4 weeks of being miserable and being absolutely upset and depressed by school. 
and countless cups of bubble tea, specifically honey red tea ,(my happy drink).
things were slightly better this week. i see a glimmer of hope of a less miserable life in smu.
and anws, i 'm sick of being miserable and upset. 
its sad that its a saturday and i'm in school. again. 
the idea of skipping classes is beginning to look very enticing again.
and i'm trying my utmost best to morph into the mugger that i should be. its weird that i am not at all
influenced by the people i see in the library studying till they burn holes in their books or the enthusiastic poeple in class.
i am beginnning to feel stressed that i am not stressed and dont feel the urge to buck up.
i still have that chill attitude towards everything and anything.
i can't decide if that's good or bad. 


in summary, i don't think i've adjusted to uni life. yet.

school is currently everything i feared it would be.
this mix of emotions, its hard to describe.
i can't find the words that fit. 
its definately weighing me down.
the past few weeks have been almost unbearable.
i feel extremely pathetic and helpless (just to name a few.)
i need to feel good about myself. fast.
even if you give me a nintendo DS lite now, i doubt i'll feel better.
but hey if you really want to give me one, I DON'T MIND. ha.

and i seem to enjoy listening to hei se mao yi on repeat  at times like this.

i've recently realised i acquired a new skill.
I CAN STONE AND WRITE AT THE SAME TIME!! YOU CAN???? HAHA.
i realised on tues, from ppl, that we've actually 1 major grp project, 1 indv assignment plus 1 grp presentation
for bgs. 3 assignments in total. all along i only thought there was 1. 
i flipped open my notbook to write this newly acquired information down, and to my delight/horror
i had actually written it down before. but i cannot rmb writing it down at all.
only explanation: i was stoning while writing or i had an out of body experience. 
okay, i really must snap out of this holiday, i-have-all-the-time-in-the-world mood. I have to.
and for some reason i developed this very horrid cough and i have very thick icky gross slimy greenish phlegm.
and i cannot sleep properly bacuse i cough every 5 seconds and the phlegm/mucus is blocking my air passage.
I Couldn't even eat my maggie mee in peace just now cos my throat kept itching and everytime i'm about to swallow the noodles i feel like coughing. and the feeling is damn irritating. just imagine. i was so afraid i wld cough maggie mee all over my computer.
trying to be smart i decided to try the yi du gong du(fight posion with poison) method. Once, when i had a realleh bad cough
i went to buy a whole tub of ice cream and ate it all. the nxt day the cough was gone. so i thought it would work again,
i ate chips, chocolates, cookies and drank ice milo/ice tea/teh bing/smoothie over the pass few days
and guess what. the freaking cough will not go away.  i should really stop acting smart and stick to conventional methods that work.
OH! i went for a hair trim and my hair is in a weird mess now. yesterday i looked like a butch. i couldn't take it
i went to buy a rubber band and tied my hair up. BAD HAIR DAY MAN.

( last last sunday )